They think we’re just sitting there.
Engine off. Hands on the wheel. Doing nothing.
We’re not doing nothing.
That driveway?
That’s the line between two worlds.
Inside that house—
there’s people who love you.
People who expect you.
Out here?
You’re still in it.
Still scanning.
Still replaying.
Still carrying things you’ll never say out loud.
Because once you walk through that door…
you’re not allowed to bring it with you.
So you sit.
Not because you want to—
but because you have to.
- You’re running through the shift
- Thinking about what could’ve gone wrong
- Making sure you left it all behind
- Trying to become “normal” again
But the truth?
You don’t just flip that switch.
Some things from this job don’t come off…
even when the uniform does.
That’s what Behind the Wall, Beyond the Game stands for.
The part nobody sees—but every CO lives.
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